xZengJun

2011-09-20T07:29:00.000-07:00

Hi Hi!! i've created twitter!
follow me @xZengJun (:
reluctant to go to school!!
boring lesson~

Mem' came back ):

2011-09-08T10:34:00.000-07:00

Taking a short break after part of our N paper.
Tiring, but can't stop. ):

sometimes i'm wondering,
(no offence) why do girls like to leave boys silently?
without any reasons.... anyone knows???

手机有收讯简讯不是你
打开了更让人失望到底
);

2011-09-02T09:46:00.000-07:00

Whoever is going around telling people
that i like kx. just shut your mouth.
i giving up on her alr. stop going around
telling people. if you cant control your mouth,
go buy tape to tape your mouth. over it over,
just shut the fuck up.

2011-08-31T10:42:00.000-07:00

5 days to N level.
totally got no mood to study.

its the last text for you.
will not bother you anymore. );

2011-08-26T22:17:00.000-07:00

Such boring days~~
heading to jurong for swimming.
hope i will have fun (:

2011-08-16T22:58:00.000-07:00

2 more papers to end of prelim!! (:
i'm stuck at home for the 2nd day!
under going renovation,
cannot sleep, go out,
the only thing i can do is, com! ):
how long is it gonna be!!

2011-08-11T08:33:00.000-07:00

That should be me holding your hand
That should be me making you laugh
That should be me, this is so sad
That should be me, that should be me
That should be me feeling your kiss
That should be me buying you gifts

Never should've let you go
I never should've let you go
That should be me
Never should've let you go
That should be me
Never should've let you go
Never should've let you go
That should be me

2011-07-29T23:13:00.000-07:00

Had been studying this weeks~
Tiring weeks~
Had an outing yesterday,
to the Railway~ (: Had lots of fun!!!
post again next time. off to study~

i finally know whats the feeling
when you see someone you love,
with another guy. hurt the most,
when i have to fake a smile
and act as if nothing happened.
thats life, and life sucks...

2011-07-19T01:37:00.000-07:00

Listening comprehension today! (:
had confidents in my answers,
but hope things don't turn out bad! HAHAS! (:
Gonna study later! (:
Fully packed these 6 weeks before my N!
hope my effort paid off! (:
Books is my best friend now!
and, don't blame me for not studying with you guys.
cos i felt that someone don't welcome me.

2011-07-18T02:24:00.000-07:00

Don't blame me for leaving.
because i feel so extra with you guys.
and, i'm not in your clique either.
seems like one of you all, dont like me.
so, don't blame me for that.
and its not because i changed.

2011-07-16T07:14:00.000-07:00

yeah, it does not concern me....
i'm just nothing....
not even a stranger to you.
i finally climb up from the deep deep hole.
and, you threw me back in.
just because of 6 words.
"not even a stranger to me"
well... i shall not bother your life
anymore. and i don't have any rights.
will f-off your life. bye.

back to the familiar hole~~
doubt whether i will climb up~~

2011-07-16T06:12:00.000-07:00

I've learn new things today! (:
even just a "best friend" could hug in public.
not bad not bad. should try it next time. (:

so, what are you trying to prove?
prove that, after you leave me,
you still have a best friend by your side?
or, should i say Boyfriend??
when you're with me, you consider bout other feelings
before doing anything, but now, you don't even
f care ppl's feelings. you never expect me to know
what did you did today, right??
Best Friend, or Boyfriend, you know it yourself.
telling me you're not fine.
but, i guess, you are PERFECTLY fine!!!!

2011-07-14T07:25:00.000-07:00

Had been studying very hard these few days.
Hope my effort pays off!! Sec 5, i'm coming! (:

He's 2nd, then, who's the 1st.
i thought he was the 1st...?

2011-07-10T07:25:00.000-07:00

Back ache getting worst~ ):
Not feeling good,
post again.

you might take him as best friend.
but, do he have the same thinking?

2011-07-08T06:51:00.000-07:00

Well, these few days...
can say happy, and sad. (:
today, Self-Study in school (:
for the 1st time, i feel so guai~ HAHA!!
Studied Biology... Finally understand!
but, i still feel a pain in my heart,
when i see her with him...
Got to get over with it! ASAP!!
Don't wanna affect my studies~~

2011-07-03T05:54:00.000-07:00

My bike is finally done!! (:
OMG 2 months without it.
but, 1st day of riding,
make me fuck up. my judgment really correct.
didn't expect to see them...
make me totally no mood to practice my tricks!
Fuck man!! Knn!! haix... damn sian...
unlucky day~

Can you pls tell me the truth.
what r/s is you and him?
even you tell me nth now.
but, i bet you will fall in love with him, soon.
since, he treated you that good.
last time, i also treated you good,
and you fall for me.
but, you're free now.
i can't do anything too.

2011-06-28T05:15:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was the first day of school.
Time flies, its July already.
Hope these term would be a better one, than before.
especially without her.
still trying to get used to it.

its really very difficult to forget you.
in the cinema, suddenly, i thought you were beside me.
had the urge calling your name.
in the bus, thought you were beside me,
had the urge to talk to you. but, no one is beside me.
when walking home, thinking, why i reached home that early.
why i did not walk you home.
when i wake up, had a sudden thinking,
why didn't you texted me, but i realise why...
had the urge to text you before i sleep.
but, you're not with me anymore.
all this, is what happened to me,
in this few weeks without you.
but, i guess you had forgotten me yeah?
happy that you are happy in class with them. (;

2011-06-25T09:19:00.001-07:00

"class outing" today (:
not everyone was here,
but i had fun, except for some parts. ):
Bowling today, at 1st, was fun,
but it turn our bad when he came.
i quit playing, and left...
went to timah arcade while waiting for them
they came to play pool,
lucky he did not come along,
or, i'm gonna find somewhere else to go~
from that point, we had a lot of fun!
with, XiHwee, XinYi, Hendrick and PinHong.
Last min decision to movie!! HAHAS!!!
tiring day, 12pm to 12am~
12 hours out!! (:

I still can't accept the fact,
but, i can't say anything,
you're not mine anymore.
fml

2011-06-24T11:18:00.000-07:00

By reading you blog,
guess you and him are quite close.
you should thanks that genting trip~
lost me, gain him.
someone you always wanted,
understand you, care for you
help you, and most importantly,
make you happy.
all this, i cant do it,
now, we're over, i'm gonna let him do it.
even just as a friend,
he's doing great, and you too....
you lost me, but still have them...
after all, i'm still not that important,
compared to yours precious friends~

2011-06-22T05:37:00.000-07:00

You always say,
"if you love me, you wont do this"
now, this apply to you.
did you even care bout my feelings
when you are doing that?
do you ever think you had a bf?
i doubt you had...
dissapointed in you.

2011-06-19T02:23:00.000-07:00

怕安静:
我又幫自己訂了場電影結果坐在廣場找你背影
人來了又去我好懷念遲到有人會發脾氣

手機有收訊簡訊不是你打開了更讓人失望到底
你走就走吧幹麻留下每天沒看完的韓劇

我想我真的怕安靜少了你吵我不開心
回家第一個開機掩蓋所有的安靜說不定我能夠撐過去

我想我真的怕安靜連洗澡都要戴耳機
打電動聲東擊西一停我又怕想起唸我和愛我的人我沒珍惜

你愛的歌手又出了專輯一樣好聽可是特別痛心
歌詞每一句根本辦不到還硬勸我要放棄

把鬧鐘設不停或許我會清醒我想等下去可惜愛不能靠毅力
要是我挽回你你一定更傷心愛一個人不一定要永遠在一起

真的怕安靜不想去也硬要出去
逛鬧區到KTV 點你必點的歌曲怎麼合唱的人不是你

原來我這麼怕安靜是怕再也聽不到你
在廚房大聲唱歌在沙發硬跟我擠
讓我終於曉得我有多愛你
你已不在這裡

HarderThanYouKnow:
You said this could only get better.
There's no rush, 'cause we have each other.
You said this would last forever,
But now i doubt if i was your only lover.
Are we just lost in time?
I wonder if your love's the same.
'Cause I'm not over you
Baby, don't talk to me.
I'm trying to let go
Not loving you is harder then you know.
'Cause girl you're driving me so crazy
How can i miss you if you never would stay?
If you need time i guess I'll go away.
Inside me now there's only heartache and pain.
So where's the fire?
You've become the rain.
Are we just lost in time?
I wonder if your love's the same
'cause I'm not over you.
Baby, don't talk to me
I'm trying to let go
Not loving you is harder then you know,
('cause girl your driving me so crazy)
And if you don't want me then
i guess I'll have to go..
Not loving you is harder then you know.
yeah
So I'll make the call,
and I'll leave today
I'm gonna miss you 'cause i love you baby
Yeah, I'll make the call
I'm leaving today
Leaving always drives me crazy. ]x2]
Baby, don't talk to me
I'm trying to let go.
Not loving you is harder
Then you know,
yeah
Baby, don't talk to me
I'm trying to let go (I'm trying to let go)
Not loving you is harder
Then you know,
('cause girl your driving me so crazy)
and if you don't want me then
i guess I'll hav'ta go! (I guess I'll hav'ta go)
not loving you is harder then you know
(girl your driving me so crazy)
Baby, don't talk to me
I'm trying to let go.
Not loving you is harder, then you know,
girl your driving me so crazy.

Girl, i miss you so much.
Still struggling to let go of you. );

2011-06-18T08:28:00.001-07:00

People are asking me not to give up...
What should i do?
if i hold on, what the point.
there's no feelings her towards me anymore?
will there be a happy ending? );

2011-06-16T05:22:00.000-07:00

Forget it.
Leave, if you wished...
thanks for killing me, silently....
Good bye.

Does not hurt that much, as before.
Had mentally prepared this would happened.
so, ya, its her choice. i'll respect her choice.
but, it still hurts, when i don't know the reason
of why is she doing this. really, killing me,
silently. giving me a death sentence,
without me knowing what i did wrong.
that's the worst things ever in life.

message to you:
although i don't know what happened.
but, i think i could guess.
so, ya, i won't blame you,
and i can't, because you told me before.
this would happened.
so, i'm mentally prepared(ihopeso)
these days, i've learned to cherish you more.
but, i think, i don't have to cherish anymore.
you leaving me. lead your life well.
hope i could still care for you as a friend.
last message to you.
eat well, all three meals.
or else will have gastric.
sleep and rest well.
or else will have headache.
don't tired yourself out.
goodbye.

2011-06-16T05:11:00.000-07:00

Seriously, what happened?
i waited for you, for nearly 4 days,
and this is the shit you give me?
without telling me anything,
you just end the relationship like this?
What the fuck are you trying to do?
What the fuck that happened?
You tell me nothing!
and killing me silently!!
What the fuck is this!
damn it!!!!

2011-06-15T05:40:00.001-07:00

Its thursday tmr.
she's coming back from genting (:
after she comes back,
hope everything go smoothly.
haix... miss her lots...

2011-06-13T07:34:00.000-07:00

It's only the 1st day.
and i'm missing her like mad ):
hope you're enjoying yourself (:
2weeks~ cant see you...
don't know how to survive ):

Faster faster come back!
ANGYUANMEI,IMY!!!!!!

2011-05-22T08:10:00.000-07:00

I've learned not to put high hopes on things....

You said, i would be fine without your text.
but, i'm not. Been checking my phone today.
wishing to see your reply. but, was like, nth.
wanted to meet you, just one word from you,
make me fall deep again, "lazy"
and not just one time. two times.
and you said, i always dun mention things,
not because i dun care, is i'm afraid care too much,
ending up quarrelling. i would rather suffer in silence,
then quarelling with you. i really dun wish to quarrell.
i'm tired... i just hope things would go back the same.
but it just doesn't, and i dun know whats the problem.
maybe, i've irritated you by asking you to meet me.
i find myself irritating too. i dun wish to ask..
because, everytime i ask, i would be scared to
receive the reply....
btw, just hope things get better.
i've tried my best...

Perhaps, i ask for too much

2011-05-21T12:30:00.000-07:00

Its 3.30 right now!
Unable to fall asleep!
and nothing to do! ):
gonna trim my hair later...
see what time i wake up (:
and JIAJUN!
STOP STALKING MY BLOG!
hahas!

2011-05-20T06:55:00.000-07:00

Happy workshop these 2 days.
quite touching at the last part.
but, laughing all the way, during the workshop.
tiring~

tried to not care,
but i realise, i still care.
tried to not see,
but i realise, i still see.

2011-05-18T06:56:00.000-07:00

Fuck~ damn lucky today.
almost lost my phone,
lucky found it (:

imissyou

2011-05-15T11:13:00.000-07:00

I miss you~
can you please come back to me.
i've waited for so long,
and i'll continue to wait.
until the day we are back tgt.
stop blaming yourself,
the problem don't lies on you!
stop thinking it is....
i just want you to be happy,
happy with me every single day.
i'll give you my best to keep you happy.
please, come back to me... will you? ):

iloveyou

2011-05-11T06:01:00.000-07:00

Looking at you now I can tell
That you and your new relationship ain't going well
There's no reason your name should come up on my cell
Unless you're unhappy but that shouldn't be the case

'Cause you said, said he was the one
Baby, yes, you said, said you were in love, love
When you left me, you said that you wouldn't be coming back
Remember that but I never agreed

I hate to say it but I told you so
Told you if you left that you were going be miserable
Guess he don't do it like me or else you wouldn't be
Running back to the past, it was you that left me

I hate to say it but you know I'm right
Every time you're up, you're calling for me late at night
But now that you ain't got me, tell me where you going be
'Cause I can't take you back, no, my heart won't let me

Girl, you know he can't touch like I do
I don't see you tripping or flipping over his moves
Don't take a genius to see, he ain't that dude
But you let him back, you don't know what you was on

When you said, said he was the one
Baby, yes you said, said you were in love, love
When you left me you said that you wouldn't be coming back
Remember that but I never agreed

I hate to say it but I told you so
Told you, if you left that you were going be miserable
Guess he don't do it like me or else you wouldn't be
Running back to the past, it was you that left me

I hate to say it but you know I'm right
Every time you're up, you're calling for me late at night
But now, that you ain't got me, tell me where you going be
'Cause I can't take you back, no, my heart won't let me

You fell on hard times it seems but you ain't getting no sympathy
No baby, not from me 'cause I told you, you should never leave
See you chose this road so you gotta go it alone
Remember I told you so

I hate to say it but I told you so
Told you if you left that you were going be miserable
Guess he don't do it like me or else you wouldn't be
Running back to the past, it was you that left me

I hate to say it but you know I'm right
Every time you're up, you're calling for me late at night
But now, that you ain't got me, tell me where you going be
'Cause I can't take you back, no, my heart won't let me

2011-05-07T10:11:00.001-07:00

You've changed.
to someone who don't care bout me.
to someone that never say "imissyou" to me anymore.

What causes you to change?

Do you still love me,
like how you love me in the past?

);

2011-05-04T07:22:00.000-07:00

Am i really not reliable to you?

Not able to share the burden with you?

2011-05-03T05:52:00.000-07:00

Fever~~ ):
went to baby's house ytd.. to "study"
me and leroy played doodle jump,
trying to break each other's record.
went to plaza to meet vincent around 6.
had training and totally have no mood playing,
due to the stupid fever. left at around 8,
went over to baby's house to find her (:
she "forced" me to eat medicine! hahas!!
and today! give school a miss, still having fever in the morning. ):
acc baby to take her laptop! she have her
i phone 4 and laptop, don't want me alr ): sob sob ):

these few days, its great.
Just me and you, without them!
its better, happier (:

2011-04-30T09:21:00.001-07:00

Life of Acting

Just one time from you, i've stop.
A few times from me, you still continued...

you never know how i feel....
asking you not to be angry, when myself is not feeling good.

2011-04-29T08:29:00.000-07:00

you still thinks i have feelings towards her?
these 2 days out with me, means nth to you?
when will you have the trust in me?
when will you stop thinking bout stuffs
that is not gonna happen?
when will you believe that my love towards you
is real?
when will you believe that i will not leave you?
when will you believe my feelings will not fade towards you?
when will you thinks that i will not fall in love with other girls?

i really don't know when...

2011-04-28T04:17:00.000-07:00

Chinese exam today, gonna die ):
after exam, company baby go novena
take her i phone 4 (: she's very happy!!
hahas!! went back at around 5 plus (:
love her max! (:

2011-04-25T05:33:00.000-07:00

Thanks to you, Big Mouth!

i trusted you, but this is what you do.
happy now? Fuck!

i really dun know what you wanted,
i dun know you well enough, like you always say.
you said, they know you better than i do, ya, thats true.
i'm not even being trust by you from the start till now.
when we are tgt, you suspected me, asking,
did you smoke? i dun believe you never...
this is what i heard from you. personally.
maybe its because you don't trust me at all,
so when ppl tell you stuffs bout me, you believe them,
and no matter how much i explain, you still choose to believe
yourself, or rather him.
you said, you will give up and my last chance is gone,
but now, you are making me feel, i still have the chance.
perhaps, i really don't know you well enough.
nvm, its over now. we had enough, we went through enough.
its your time to move on and forget me.

2011-04-24T04:53:00.000-07:00

Why is my hands so itchy,
if i never click, never scroll,
i'll never know. i rather i don't

Maybe i should stop using com.
"surprises" kept coming to me...
will be back when i "recover".

2011-04-24T03:22:00.001-07:00

Day 4

Miss your morning texts, miss your goodnight texts.

2011-04-23T09:56:00.000-07:00

suddenly, i've think what you said to me in the past.
i'm lost.... ): perhaps, its just angry words to you.
but, for me, its not.
painful.

2011-04-23T07:59:00.000-07:00

its saturday...
4 days to my birthday.
and, 4 days to mid year. ):
went town today, for movie,
pool, and walk walk. (: friend bought me
a manhattan portage bag, happy ttm!!!
hahas! went scape to "look" for yuan mei.
went to play bball with pros! gained
quite a lot of experience! (:
Tired!!

i still love you,
and miss you. ):
hope you had already
forget me...

2011-04-21T07:45:00.000-07:00

until now, you still insist in saying i did smoke in school.
but,its not important now. just forget me. i'm sure you
could find someone better than me, a person could do anything
for you, give in whenever you two quarrel, and, most importantly,
do not lie to you, like i did... i'm sorry. take care...

i'm not fine, especially receiving that msg.
i'm not happy, for not having you.
but i'm happy, seeing you with your friends,
laughing away.

2011-04-21T04:35:00.000-07:00

Day 1.
I still miss you. But not as much. Gonna keep my everyday packed so that i won't think of you too much. (: I hope you're fine, i hope you're happy. Love you.

2011-04-20T08:22:00.000-07:00

You've gotta rmb, no one gains anything. When I stop you from doing those stuffs, you're th only one gainin from it. I want you to be a better person. I want you to be someone everyone is proud of. But now I'm no longer able to do it anymore, you've gotta do it yourself. Somewhere I'll still be watching, and I'll be proud of you if you did it. Study hard. Thanks for all these time.......... And that's the last time I'm gonna say, I loved you.

2011-04-18T08:05:00.000-07:00

i'm tired

I trying very hard, to quit.
hopefully i could quit it by end of MYE.
and could proudly tell you, i've alr quit it!

i don't know why,
don't know why i'm not looking forward,
to my birthday.
every birthday boy should be happy,
when their birthday is reaching.
but, i just don't know, why i'm not.
not even a little excited.
perhaps, birthday, is not important anymore.
i've received the present, i don't want to receive.
everything is not surprised anymore...
i'll never forget this year, 2011.
how i spent my birthday....

2011-04-15T19:36:00.000-07:00

Every year, i do not have an
happy birthday, this year too..
receive an early present from her...
big big present, that i'll never forget.
i lost her...

2011-04-15T07:33:00.000-07:00

I still love you a lot. really...
yes, i promised you not to s.
but i just don't have the pressure.
when i'm with you, i could quit,
because i know i love you, i dun wanna lose you.
but, now when we are not tgt,
i just don't have the pressure to quit.
please trust me for one last time.
if you are willing to come back to me,
i will surely quit it.
i still love you, a lot....

2011-04-14T19:08:00.000-07:00

I love you, ........ so much.

Do you know?

2011-04-10T07:48:00.000-07:00

Tiring week... ):
Saturday, woke up at 6am!
Sunday, woke up at 8am! ):
super tired!!
I miss angyuanmei!

2011-04-06T04:07:00.000-07:00

Fourth April ♥
Loves AYM. (:

2011-04-05T00:53:00.000-07:00

You are finally back to me,
but this time, not as a friend (:
i will not regret having you,
love ya (:

2011-03-30T07:21:00.000-07:00

When will i have you back...?
i willing to wait,
but are you willing to give me/us another chance?
Months of loneliness.... days without you....
Months without hearing you saying you miss me....
Feelings just simply sucks....

2011-03-30T01:25:00.000-07:00

Boring days.
Been doing 1 compo everyday.
owe teacher de home work.
just finish doing it, 1 more to go. (:

i want you back ):

2011-03-29T00:08:00.000-07:00

Am i blocking your way to move on?

If i am, tell me.

2011-03-28T06:51:00.000-07:00

Talking to me just make you feel worse
i would only make you unhappy.
i'm not good enough for you....

2011-03-25T05:17:00.000-07:00

I'm still waiting... always waiting.
i will not give up, unless you tell me,
you are not gonna come back to me anymore.
it'll never change.....

2011-03-24T02:17:00.000-07:00

Not me, anymore.

2011-03-15T08:46:00.000-07:00

BUSY WEEK!
Sentosa!!
fun ttm today. (:
dragged everyone down except for ZANN!!!
she lucky, never bring cloths, and yong dong
is protecting her!! play till half, rain! sian ttm.
changed plan, went to vivo to makan, ate
wanton noodle, all of us was very hungry!
all add noodle and wanton! (: headed back to
panjang after our meals. (: hope you guys
enjoyed it (:

going town tmr!! (:

imissyou
iwantyouback

2011-03-14T08:27:00.000-07:00

PHONE SPOIL!! ):
wanted to be alone at home today.
but friends wanted to come my house
when i tell them i don't feel like going out.
when can i be alone, at home... ):

imissyou,everythingboutyou

2011-03-13T08:46:00.001-07:00

actually i have so much to say, but it doesnt matters now :)

just wna thank you for all this while being with me.

i thought you'r the one that wouldn't hurt me, but you still did.

but it's okay, that's life :) i'll forget.

iloveyou.

2011-03-13T05:36:00.000-07:00

it's sunday again. had mahjong session with friends at my house.
they headed off to fish, but i can't go. ): been thinking a lot
these few days. we are really drifting, i guess you don't even
needed me in the 1st place. i can't say much, and i don't want
to mention it. mentioning it, will only make us quarrel, again.
i'm really confused, and tired....

iloveyou, but, i'mtired..

2011-03-09T20:55:00.001-08:00

Its the last time, really the last....
hope this would be better than before.
baby, i love you....

2011-03-08T23:27:00.000-08:00

"
go with him. he can make you happier....
i've done my job, for taking care of you.
its someone's turn now. he can do better. );

2011-03-08T04:19:00.000-08:00

been sleeping and sleeping this 2days.
i hate it. is it gonna continue, i don't know.
but, i guess not, since i'm a 2 face freak to her.
i'm not good enough for her. );

2011-03-07T13:11:00.000-08:00

I'm Nothing to You.
Believe What Others Say,
This Is What You Do.

unable to fall asleep the whole night.
was waiting time to pass before heading to
school. 1 hour to go.

so, i'm a 2 face freak to you.
fine, let it be, you still choose to
believe what they tell you, thn
believe me. forget it, let it be...

2011-03-07T05:19:00.000-08:00

只是舍不得。

2011-03-02T03:55:00.001-08:00

i hate myself!
for being so stupid, doing stupid things
that make you sad. i really hope we could forever
be like how we are the past 2 days. i am sorry for the
things i've done. i know, you need time to forget
all these stupid things i did, so do i. i only could say,
thank you and sorry to you. thank you for holding
back, and sorry for what i've done.
aym,iloveyou,icantaffordtoloseyou.

2011-03-02T00:50:00.000-08:00

Im still considered calm.

... to that extend of blaming myself for checking your phone.

I told myself to think twice before i made any harsh decision, (thats why i ignored you)... I have the urge to tell you just fucking let me go. I have the urge to tell you to just stop everything btw us.

I didnt continue th quarrel with you, because i knew i still wanted you.....

I just have to swallow the anger, reflect myself that why you'll do this....

because im not good enough for you...

:'(

2011-02-27T03:10:00.001-08:00

i'm lost

its sunday again. common test is over.
slept quite late yesterday, and regretted
using com, i miss her alot, looking forward to meet her today, but,
when i went to her profile, made me totally no mood.
"in an open relationship" with him. it may be a small
thing to you, maybe you think it is no wrong.
ya, she's right, i'm no nobody to her, i can't care much,
i got no right to ask her take it off. all i can do is,
sit still, and watch his name appearing at her profile.
nothing else i can do. my feelings are like fuck now.
i'm lost, really, i really don't know what i should do now. );

2011-02-19T07:15:00.001-08:00

Saturday (:
what a tiring day man!
woke up at around 9.15am.
went to kallang, slack, and came
back to panjang. went to meet kelvin,
yong dong. kelvin went off to meet his family.
yong dong and i went to meet ym,
helped her take birkenstock shoe from her friend.
meet up with raymond and slack (: went home at
around 10. tired!!!

IMISSYOU!

2011-02-18T05:05:00.001-08:00

Been quite moody this few days.
but today, just one msg, and just one action,
healed me. (: very happy today! missyou!

both of us did not change.

2011-02-17T02:18:00.000-08:00

是你变了，还是我变了。。。还是，我们都变了？

2011-02-16T06:09:00.000-08:00

[Wednesday]
common test coming.
boring! study study study.

This thing will never stop, if he never stops
And it will never stop, if you never say no.

2011-02-04T10:46:00.001-08:00

HappyChineseNewYear!(ChuEr)
Just came back from malaysia. today was
super boring! Went to my ErGu house,
then XiaoShu house. thn went home. waited
for relative to come my house before heading to
malaysia. No plan for tmr. (:

Baby! IMISSYOU!!!

2011-01-28T04:21:00.000-08:00

Town today with, Kelvin,YongDong,Elisa,YuanMei.
Went to watch movie. went home at around 8.
nth to post alr. bye

2011-01-25T06:57:00.001-08:00

Someone likea pig now sleeping and did not reply my text...

I'm so bored...

Me miss you! :B

2011-01-19T23:33:00.001-08:00

[Thursday]
it has been so long since i post.
school starts, and was quite fun
and yet quite boring. hahas.
nth much to post alr. byebye

i have no choice but to.

2010-12-26T17:28:00.000-08:00

Hi Hi, i'm back. had not been using com
these few days. X'mas eve and X mas, was
totally nobody at pepper lunch. the most only
a few orders at a time. Xmas, i worked half day at suntec.
and half day at Funan. Funan was really a place to slack
their sales was like only 700 dollars daily,
compare to bugis, their sales were 2500 that day.
see the difference!!

Imy so much suddenly...

3days to pay day!!!

2010-12-20T04:26:00.000-08:00

Mummy! Happy Belated Birthday!
Took half day off ytd. went out to eat
which i don't dun know is it. hahas. (:
i only know its safra, but dun know where
de safra. went to restaurant to eat.
eat 2 bowl of rice, BUT the bowl is
fucking small. eat liao oso not full.
fucking exp somemore. no worth it lor!

2010-12-16T06:36:00.001-08:00

[Thursday]
had been slacking at plaza this few days.
bicycle is like rotting at home.
boring life, with so much unhappy things
happening around me. haix...
work at bugis tmr, lucky until 9 only.
don't have to do closing! lucky!

2010-12-15T07:57:00.000-08:00

[Wednesday]
went out whole day, celebrate yong dong's birthday.
went to play pool, and bought him a crumpler bag.
appeared to be happy on the outside, but actually i'm not
yet, i cant do anything now, i a nobody to her now.
all i can do is to put on a fake smile. (: i rather others
to be happy, than unhappy because of me. (:

you don't actually need me in the first place.
you have all the other friends to make you laugh,
make you smile. make a happy day for you.
all i do is make you unhappy.

2010-12-13T08:49:00.000-08:00

[Monday]
worked at bugis today.
quite slack, but i still prefer suntec.
maybe i used to suntec closing.
find it more easy (:
quite a boring days these few days.
work and work and work.
lucky tmr off. (:

i can see that you really had forget me.
could reply and text happily with other people.
but not a single reply from you,
from morning till night.
i can't blame you, you only said you wanted
to see my text, but never say will reply.
and you are no my who now, i cant say anything.
whatever you do, just stay happy will do.

2010-12-08T03:57:00.001-08:00

[Wednesday]
Kelvin, Yong Dong off today.
long time never like this slack alr.
slacked with, Kelvin,AhBoy,YongDong
MingYao,Ivan and YuanMei.
Haix, i should not have come out.
she had them, thats enough.
i was like invinsible... did not have
much to talk to her. it's really over.
no chance of turning back anymore. );

I don't need you to care for me.
It will only make me feel worse.
i just want you to be a normal friend.
that's enough. you seems easy to
let me go. seeing you so happy
with them, i'm happy for you too.
hope you go on like this. GoodBye....

2010-12-03T09:20:00.000-08:00

start work today.
got my pay, but still have to bank in.
totally no mood working. due to some
personal stuffs. ): nth much to post.

我舍不得你, can we dun end this.
it will not be the same without you.
although i do get unhappy through
your actions, but it does not matter!
i just want you to be by my side.
we had been through so much.
now, because of one person, we have to
end this. ):

2010-12-01T08:25:00.000-08:00

Fuck Off my life la!
From now, anything related to you
i wont fuck care anymore.
making me and her quarrell for no reason!
Enough is enough, all because of you,
we keep quarrell, knn. fuck off la!

2010-11-30T06:21:00.000-08:00

today totally sucks.
i appear to be happy, but actually i'm not.
firstly, actually i did not wanted to go today.
but it was because of her, i wanted her to be
happy. secondly, i give her face, because it's her
birthday. thirdly, i saw things that make me
totally no mood. no matter what, today just simply
sucks for me. regretted going today.

i don't care whether i am happy or not.
all i care is, whether you are happy.
as long as you are happy, that's enough.

2010-11-29T07:21:00.000-08:00

i'm was forcing myself to do things i don't wish to do,
but all this is because of you...

boring day today.
nth much to say.

2010-11-27T09:44:00.000-08:00

[Saturday]
woke up at 12pm
received Yong Dong's msg,
asking me to go slack before going to work.
went to meet him for awhile and went off to work.
thinking that, it's saturday, there will be a lot
of people, hahas, but i was wrong,
not many, but not very few, like normal. (:
did dish up today, instead of service.
time passes damn fast when doing dish up.
we closes at 10pm, and customer still coming in
at 9.45pm, with 2 groups, 8 peoples, and 6 people.
i totally blur. thinking, gonna go home late today.
knock off at 11am, reached home, 12.30pm. ):

Baby, i miss you very much.
1 day past, 1 more day. ):

2010-11-26T06:46:00.000-08:00

[friday]
off today. but working 2pm tmr. (:
went to meet ivan and yong dong to slack.
bad day for yd, pedal slip and cut himself.
damn suay....

two days cant see you. ):

Harder Than You Know:
You said this could only get better. There's no rush, 'cause we have each other.
You said this would last forever, But now i doubt if i was your only lover.
Are we just lost in time? I wonder if your love's the same.
'Cause I'm not over you

Baby, don't talk to me. I'm trying to let go Not loving you is harder then you know.
'Cause girl you're driving me so crazy How can i miss you if you never would stay?
If you need time i guess I'll go away. Inside me now there's only heartache and pain.
So where's the fire? You've become the rain.

Are we just lost in time? I wonder if your love's the same 'cause I'm not over you.
Baby, don't talk to me I'm trying to let go Not loving you is harder then you know,
('cause girl your driving me so crazy) And if you don't want me then
i guess I'll have to go.. Not loving you is harder then you know. yeah

So I'll make the call, and I'll leave today 'm gonna miss you 'cause i love you baby
Yeah, I'll make the call I'm leaving today Leaving always drives me crazy. ]x2]
Baby, don't talk to me I'm trying to let go. Not loving you is harder Then you know,
yeah

Baby, don't talk to me I'm trying to let go (I'm trying to let go) Not loving you is harder
Then you know, ('cause girl your driving me so crazy) and if you don't want me then
i guess I'll hav'ta go! (I guess I'll hav'ta go) not loving you is harder then you know
(girl your driving me so crazy)

Baby, don't talk to me I'm trying to let go. Not loving you is harder, then you know,
girl your driving me so crazy.

2010-11-25T09:04:00.000-08:00

[Thursday]
work today. went out at around 9.15
to meet kelvin at 406 to slack before going
to work. YongDong, JiaJun, and YuanMei came.
Kelvin went off to work, while the rest followed me
down to suntec. they went for an interview,
probably working at bugis's pepper lunch.
end work at 10.30, home at 11.30 (:

This Girl:
There's this girl, the one and only wonder of this world(my world)
and it don't matter if the road gets rough(yeah)if me rich or poor(yeah
she stay down with me if me go to war(my girl) love you cos you are,
every single star, in constellation, that's enlighting my heart, special
gift from jah, wherever you are, girl you get more presence than a
hundred santa clauses, and i know(i know), we'll stand together when the world
fall downs, and i know(i know) that our forever's gonna start right now, yeah.

there this girl, the one and only wonder of this world(my world) and it don't matter
if the road gets rough(yeah) if me rich or poor(yeah) she stay down with me if me go
to war(my girl) there's this girl, the one and only wonder of this world(my world),
and it don't matter if the road gets rough(yeah) if me rich or poor(yeah)
she stay down with me till we in the floor(my girl), these are the hardest times, love's so
hard to find, blessed is the man who has a woman at his side, this for you
i write, never do me wrong, if you're ever missing me, just listen to this song,
and you know(you know), we lay together when the sun goes down
and i know(i know), still be together when it comes back round(back round, yeah)

there's this girl, the one and only wonder of this world(my world) and
it don;t matter if the roads get rough(yeah) if me rich or poor(yeah)
she stay down with me if me go to war(my girl) there's this girl,
the one and only wonder of this world(my world) and it don;t matter
if the road gets rough(yeah) if me rich or poor(yeah) she stay down with me till
we in the floor(my girl) i said, she stay down with me if me go to war(mygirl)
i said, she stay down with me till we in the floor(my girl), my girl give me everything
i need, she's there everytime i call upon her, ya know? my girl, it's laza

2010-11-24T05:26:00.000-08:00

today went out quite early,
meet yong dong, baby and jaslin
outside school. (: went to singapore post,
and thn plaza, thn bangkit, thn 406.
quite a busy day yah. (:

i miss you. ):

When you're gone:
i always needed time on my own,
i never thought i'd need you there when i cry.
and the days feel like years when i'm alone,
and the bed where you lie, is made up on your side.
when you walk away, i count the steps that you take,
do you see how much i need you right now,
when you're gone, the pieces of my heart are missing you,
when you're gone, the face i came to know is missing too,
when you're gone, the wordsi need to hear to always get me through
the day, and make it ok, i miss you.

i've never felt this way before, everything that i do, reminds me of you,
and the clothes you left, they lie on the floor, and they smell just like you,
i love the things that you do, when you walk away, i count the steps that you take,
do you see how much i need you right now,
when you're gone, the pieces of my hearts are missing you,
when you're gone, the face i came to know is missing too,
when you're gone, the words i need to hear to always get me through
the day and make it ok, i miss you,

we were made for each other,out here forever, i know we were, yeah,
all i wanted was for you know, everything i'd do, i'd give my heart and soul,
i can hardly breathe, i need to feel you here, with me, yeah...
when you're gone, the pieces of my heart are missing you,
when you're gone, the face i came to know is missing too,
when you're gone, the words i need to hear to always get me through
the day and make it ok, i miss you....

2010-11-23T16:59:00.000-08:00

谢谢你昨天对我说的那些话。：）

2010-11-22T08:33:00.000-08:00

不管明天会发生什么，记得要快乐噢：）

2010-11-21T09:16:00.000-08:00

[Sunday]
been working for the past few days.
family came down to eat today.
knock off at 10.30pm.
mood totally gone after i receive
a message. ):

is this really coming to an end between us.
i don't want to put an end. all because of her,
we became like this, all because you scared
that you would hurt her, we had become like this.
i don't wanna put this to an end, please, i still love you. ):

I'm all about you.

There's something i've got to say,
You're always with me even though you're far away,
Talking to you on my cell, just the sound of your voice,
makes my heart melts, oh girl, it's true,
i'm all about you, i'm all about us, oh baby you never
have to question my love, and every night, there's a new
crowd, but it's always you i'm singing about.
there is only on these words are going out, oh girl,
i'm all about you.

i know you're worried sometimes,(you're worried)
some other girls will make me, forget, you're mine.
there's not a doubt in this world, that anyone could take
the place of my number one girl ... it's true, i'm all about you,
i'm all about us, no baby, you never have to question my love
and every night, there's a new crowd, but it's always you i'm
singing about.there is only on these words are going out, oh girl,
i'm all about you.

when i close my eyes, i can see you, it's like
you're right here, and this feelings only getting stronger, you're
with me everywhere.... i'm all about you, i'm all about us, oh baby,
you never have to question my love, and every night, there's a
new crowd, but it's always you i'm singing about.there is only
on these words are going out to, oh girl, i'm all about you.....

2010-11-16T11:31:00.000-08:00

Its 3.42am now. i'm still awake.
unable to get to sleep. i miss her,
but she is not replying my message,
since around 11pm. bored to death. ):
can anyone just entertain me!

2010-11-13T09:13:00.001-08:00

[Saturday]
just had chalet from wed to friday.
did not post ytd, cos, reach home,
went to sleep alr. and now, just came back
from work. not quite tired. although quite
a long working hours, 12pm-11pm. (:
tmr oso same. saw regine over there, she
came to eat. hahas (: end my post here. bye (:

I miss you

2010-11-09T08:54:00.000-08:00

[Tuesday]
i only have one word to describe today.
boring day. slacked till 7.30+
tmr going chalet. boring.

once again, the bad feelings came back
to find its owner, me. the moment you
came down from your house. saw him
sleeping on the chair, you went to disturb
him. you two started to play. playing happily
away, not even noticing me that i'm jealous.
i slept, listen to songs, just to ignore what you
and him is doing. i thought you had realised
that i'm jealous, when i went up to your house.
but when i came down, i saw another thing that
completely hurts me for the day. heart had totally
break when i saw that. you were wearing his jacket.
that time you said you were cold, and i did not
bring mine. i got no choice. but now, you were wearing
long sleeve, and i'm wearing one. i really dun know
what i should do. all i wish now, everything to be off
my brain now.

completely broke......for the day.........

2010-11-07T03:04:00.000-08:00

[Sunday]
slept till 3pm thn wake up.
like pig sia me. hahas (:
went to pass kelvin spannar,
his bicycle inner tire burst.
pass alr i go home alr. totally nua-ing now.
nth to do, other thn use com.
boring life. tmr going play bball. (:

baby, i miss you.
just now only see you awhile ):