.Tuesday, June 28, 2011 ' 05:15 Y
xZengJun
Yesterday was the first day of school.
Time flies, its July already.
Hope these term would be a better one, than before.
especially without her.
still trying to get used to it.
its really very difficult to forget you.
in the cinema, suddenly, i thought you were beside me.
had the urge calling your name.
in the bus, thought you were beside me,
had the urge to talk to you. but, no one is beside me.
when walking home, thinking, why i reached home that early.
why i did not walk you home.
when i wake up, had a sudden thinking,
why didn't you texted me, but i realise why...
had the urge to text you before i sleep.
but, you're not with me anymore.
all this, is what happened to me,
in this few weeks without you.
but, i guess you had forgotten me yeah?
happy that you are happy in class with them. (;
.Saturday, June 25, 2011 ' 09:19 Y
xZengJun
"class outing" today (:not everyone was here,but i had fun, except for some parts. ):Bowling today, at 1st, was fun,but it turn our bad when he came.i quit playing, and left...went to timah arcade while waiting for themthey came to play pool,lucky he did not come along,or, i'm gonna find somewhere else to go~from that point, we had a lot of fun!with, XiHwee, XinYi, Hendrick and PinHong.Last min decision to movie!! HAHAS!!!tiring day, 12pm to 12am~ 12 hours out!! (:I still can't accept the fact,
but, i can't say anything,
you're not mine anymore.
fml
.Friday, June 24, 2011 ' 11:18 Y
xZengJun
By reading you blog,
guess you and him are quite close.
you should thanks that genting trip~
lost me, gain him.
someone you always wanted,
understand you, care for you
help you, and most importantly,
make you happy.
all this, i cant do it,
now, we're over, i'm gonna let him do it.
even just as a friend,
he's doing great, and you too....
you lost me, but still have them...
after all, i'm still not that important,
compared to yours precious friends~
.Wednesday, June 22, 2011 ' 05:37 Y
xZengJun
You always say,
"if you love me, you wont do this"
now, this apply to you.
did you even care bout my feelings
when you are doing that?
do you ever think you had a bf?
i doubt you had...
dissapointed in you.
.Sunday, June 19, 2011 ' 02:23 Y
xZengJun
怕安静:
我又幫自己 訂了場電影 結果坐在 廣場找你背影 人來了又去 我好懷念遲到有人會發脾氣
手機有收訊 簡訊不是你 打開了 更讓人失望到底 你走就走吧 幹麻留下每天沒看完的韓劇 我想我真的怕安靜 少了你吵我不開心 回家第一個開機 掩蓋所有的安靜 說不定我能夠撐過去 我想我真的怕安靜 連洗澡都要戴耳機 打電動聲東擊西 一停我又怕想起 唸我和愛我的人 我沒珍惜 你愛的歌手 又出了專輯 一樣好聽 可是特別痛心 歌詞每一句 根本辦不到還硬勸我要放棄 把鬧鐘 設不停 或許我 會清醒 我想等下去可惜愛不能靠毅力 要是我 挽回你 你一定 更傷心 愛一個人不一定要永遠在一起 真的怕安靜 不想去也硬要出去 逛鬧區到KTV 點你必點的歌曲 怎麼合唱的人不是你 原來我這麼怕安靜 是怕再也聽不到你 在廚房大聲唱歌 在沙發硬跟我擠 讓我終於曉得 我有多愛你 你已不在 這裡
HarderThanYouKnow:
You said this could only get better. There's no rush, 'cause we have each other. You said this would last forever, But now i doubt if i was your only lover. Are we just lost in time? I wonder if your love's the same. 'Cause I'm not over you Baby, don't talk to me. I'm trying to let go Not loving you is harder then you know. 'Cause girl you're driving me so crazy How can i miss you if you never would stay? If you need time i guess I'll go away. Inside me now there's only heartache and pain. So where's the fire? You've become the rain. Are we just lost in time? I wonder if your love's the same 'cause I'm not over you. Baby, don't talk to me I'm trying to let go Not loving you is harder then you know, ('cause girl your driving me so crazy) And if you don't want me then i guess I'll have to go.. Not loving you is harder then you know. yeah So I'll make the call, and I'll leave today I'm gonna miss you 'cause i love you baby Yeah, I'll make the call I'm leaving today Leaving always drives me crazy. ]x2] Baby, don't talk to me I'm trying to let go. Not loving you is harder Then you know, yeah Baby, don't talk to me I'm trying to let go (I'm trying to let go) Not loving you is harder Then you know, ('cause girl your driving me so crazy) and if you don't want me then i guess I'll hav'ta go! (I guess I'll hav'ta go) not loving you is harder then you know (girl your driving me so crazy) Baby, don't talk to me I'm trying to let go. Not loving you is harder, then you know, girl your driving me so crazy.Girl, i miss you so much.
Still struggling to let go of you. );
.Saturday, June 18, 2011 ' 08:28 Y
xZengJun
People are asking me not to give up...
What should i do?
if i hold on, what the point.
there's no feelings her towards me anymore?
will there be a happy ending? );
.Thursday, June 16, 2011 ' 05:22 Y
xZengJun
Forget it.
Leave, if you wished...
thanks for killing me, silently....
Good bye.
Does not hurt that much, as before.
Had mentally prepared this would happened.
so, ya, its her choice. i'll respect her choice.
but, it still hurts, when i don't know the reason
of why is she doing this. really, killing me,
silently. giving me a death sentence,
without me knowing what i did wrong.
that's the worst things ever in life.
message to you:
although i don't know what happened.
but, i think i could guess.
so, ya, i won't blame you,
and i can't, because you told me before.
this would happened.
so, i'm mentally prepared(ihopeso)
these days, i've learned to cherish you more.
but, i think, i don't have to cherish anymore.
you leaving me. lead your life well.
hope i could still care for you as a friend.
last message to you.
eat well, all three meals.
or else will have gastric.
sleep and rest well.
or else will have headache.
don't tired yourself out.
goodbye.
. ' 05:11 Y
xZengJun
Seriously, what happened?
i waited for you, for nearly 4 days,
and this is the shit you give me?
without telling me anything,
you just end the relationship like this?
What the fuck are you trying to do?
What the fuck that happened?
You tell me nothing!
and killing me silently!!
What the fuck is this!
damn it!!!!
.Wednesday, June 15, 2011 ' 05:40 Y
xZengJun
Its thursday tmr.
she's coming back from genting (:
after she comes back,
hope everything go smoothly.
haix... miss her lots...
.Monday, June 13, 2011 ' 07:34 Y
xZengJun
It's only the 1st day.
and i'm missing her like mad ):
hope you're enjoying yourself (:
2weeks~ cant see you...
don't know how to survive ):
Faster faster come back!
ANGYUANMEI,IMY!!!!!!
